God Was In My Pocket! pt1

It is in my darkest days that God shows me his grace

I have been wanting to tell you this story because it is so important to me, it literally brought me down to my knees and shook me to the point that I cried out to God and asked him to help me because I did not have any strength left in me to continue to go on with life.

If you have been following this channel for a while you know that in 2017 in the middle of our first holiday season here on this channel and with so many ideas in mind to help you create something beautiful, cancer came in to my life and shifted the paradigm and trajectory of the path I was on, an would forever change my life.

As I start to write down what I would love for you to know about my encounter with cancer through a family member, I cant help to wonder how many people are in the same situation I found my self almost three years ago, going through a valley of dark days that seem as long and endless as the ocean, filled with waves of anxiety, stress and pain. Feeling lonely, weak and with no way out. Well I am here to tell you, This too shall pass, you are not alone and I hope that by the end of my story you can find some sort of peace and encouragement to keep going and to not give up.

I traveled to Tijuana MX, the place I was born and raised and after living in Kansas for over 12 years to celebrate my aunts birth day on August fifth. Upon my arrival in the airport in San Diego on the first of August she informed me that she was not feeling well, that she felt so bad because we had come all this was and she would not be able to celebrate with us due to a medication that she was taking to ease a pain she had in her stomach but not to worry and that actually she was happy to drive us around so that we could have a drink and not have to worry about driving while under the influence of a margarita or two.

On the second day of our visit she had planned a visit to a local winery, but while we were having breakfast and before we left she told us the pain was not getting better and that she might stay home to which we replied that we should cancel the trip all together, I mean, I know what it feels like to have to drive people around when you are not feeling well, it is not fun for them and its definitely not fun for you either.

After about an hour after breakfast she told us that the medication had started to kick in and that she was ready to go and so excited to be taking us exploring to places we’ve never been before but to be honest I could sence something was not right the color on her skin was telling me other wise.

While we were having a glass of wine I noticed that she was getting quieter and quieter and and her face reflecting the pain she was in, I than suggested to just go home and and that it would be a good idea if she went straight to the ER because she was not looking good, to wish she replied “and I feel worst than what I may look”

We got home at around seven o’clock and they drove straight to the ER.

One of my cousins happened to be visiting from another state in Mexico and invited us to go have dinner with her, it would be something close to my aunts home because we had the keys to the house and we had no idea how long it would take for them to get back, But 7:00 pm turned in to 11:00pm and than 2:30 am when finally there was a bang on the door.

My aunt walked in to the living room very slowly, she was still under the effects of some sort of pain killer they had given her to ease up the pain when she said the words that to this day I can hear as clear as water… Well… there was a short pause that seem hours long. I have cancer.

I knew this four syllable sentence would change my life, I knew things were about to change, But what i didn’t know was how God would use this time in my life to restore me in ways I was about to find out.

If you or a loved one is going through a hard time and need help, a shoulder to lean on or a preyer be sure to send me an email to [email protected] I would love to pray for you and help you through what I learned in the past 3 years since my Aunts diagnosis and battle with cancer


18 thoughts on “God Was In My Pocket! pt1”

  1. Hello Ramon.Thank you for sharing about your family difficult time.Truly sorry for your auntie. It can happen with every of us any minute. Do not know how I would react….I want to see my mum whom Iam very missing….only one way to see her it is pass to another life when its time comes.Here only temporary visitors we all are on a earth.Only one is bad that somebody has to go through bad illnesses pain.And how it is difficult to leave it behind loved .
    Roman I wishing you that pain do not tuch your heart and family. Love your videos ,beutiful ideas ,love your personality a lot .You are most amazing person .From you goes such a good energy.
    Kind regards

  2. Oh my darlin Ramon, my thoughts and prayers are with you and your beautiful Aunt?. I suffer from major anxiety and panic attacks and I have recently lost my job over this. I know that doesn’t even get close to what you are going through. I just wanted to share. God bless you and your family ❣️??. Please keep me updated, thanks to You Tube I feel like I have a great friend in you❣️ God Bless?❣️ Love your friend from Northeastern Pennsylvania ??❣️

  3. I love reading your heartfelt sentiments and reflections. You are truly a wonderful person filled with human kindness. Thank you for sharing this story. ❤️

    1. Jeanne, I appreciate your time my dear friend, I really hope to be able to help at least one person with my experience. I do believe God allows us to go through hardships and overcome them in order to help others that might struggle with the same issues. Have a blessed day and thank you again.

  4. Dear Ramon I am a cancer survivor. For the past year I have endured chemotherapy, surgery, and now I begin radiation. I have breast cancer. My biopsy has come back negative for cancer but for the rest of my life I will live with the fear of it returning. I do have a strong faith but sometimes the fear kicks in. I do watch your videos and they have entertained me and taught me in my darkest moments. I thank you for that. Thank you for sharing your aunty’s journey with cancer. Michelle

  5. I am so sorry about your aunt. I will keep her in my prayers. God know how strong of weak we are, God will take care of you and your family through the storms of this life. He said he will never leave us or forsake us. I have a dear niece who is like my daughter with stage cancer, so the doctors say. God is our help! Your aunt is blessed to have you. Thank you for sharing with us.

  6. Dearest Roman,
    I have been where You are. I can truly relate. My Prayers are with You. GOD will provide You with Faith and Strength. Your support and love will strengthen her too. GREAT IS THY FAITHFULNESS! ???

    1. Bobbie, You have no idea what your words of encouragement mean to me. Thank you so much for taking the time to read this part one and i hope you will return for the rest of this story. have a blessed day

  7. Patricia ramirez

    Ramon i understand how hard it is when someone u love has cancer.my beautiful daughter in law passed away aigust 10,2016 of colon cancer.she was only 37 andhad my grandson who was 7.she had huge plans.she graduated from ucla and was starting her career.she was funny,loud and caring.it will be4 years and i still cry for her

    1. Patricia, I am so sorry for your family’s loss. I cant imagine how hard it must of been for you all. But what I can can say now after I have gone through a similar experience is that god allowed her to be in your life to give everyone that came in contact with her some gifts, gifts of the soul. gifts that are unique to each individual she cross paths with. the kind of gifts only someone like her can contribute to each life she touched. it is our duty to discover those gift. As painful as it is to lose a loved one think how much better our lives are because they were here with us.
      God bless you

  8. Good morning dear Ramon!
    Thank you for sharing your beautiful story with us.
    Sometimes life has a way to show us that we aren’t a permanent fixture in this world but a traveler and that we need to focus in our purpose in life!!…God has a way to showed us the path when we are lost our way and have become strangers to his Love!!
    But glad to hear that you were able to be your aunt’s rock and support throughout this ordeal!!
    I remember when I started to watch your channel reading some comments about your aunt’s situation but didn’t know what had happened to her.
    Thank you for sharing this with us it makes us feel more togetherness with you and your family sweetie!!
    I had never felt so togetherness with somebody as I feel with you my friend it feels like I known you forever Thanks for being in my live dear friend Love you and wish you all the happiness in the world for you and Jamison !!
    And want to thank you again for sharing your thoughts and stories with us I’m very grateful for the inspiration and affection you gave us every time and the devotion and love you showed your family always!!
    It tells us so much of the wonderful human being you are, everything you do!!…You do with a passion and understanding of the Love and compassion God has gave you for others in your life!!
    I’m very proud to think of myself as your friend dear Ramon!!!
    Blessings for everyone!!
    Remember that we are loved!!

    1. Graciela, Thank you so much for such sweet comment.
      Yes two years back and in the middle of the storm I used my Channel as therapy to talk about what was going on, you all were the only thing i had that kept me sane during such trial time in my life. I stopped talking about it because i did not want the viewers to think that i was being whiny, I am so glad I did stop because it allowed me to focus on the task at hand which was helping taking care of my aunt. I have been wanting to tell this story for a long time and now I feel like is the right time and i feel like I am being guided by God to talk about this because I know there is someone out there who is going through a hard time that needs to know, you are not alone, you have what it takes and you will make it through. God had mercy of me and never left me and he will never leave any of his children. I cant wait to continue with this story and I hope you will come back.
      Have a blessed day

    1. Lorraine, thank you so much for stopping by and I hope you will come back for future entries. I am so excited for you all to get to read this life changing experience I have gone through and i hope that me sharing it will inspire other to keep going. Have a blessed day

  9. Cancer is such a huge life changer! I’m glad you’re sharing your story. It’s so important. One of my favorite quotes is this-, “I love when people who have been through hell walk out of the flames carrying buckets of water for those who are still consumed by the fire.” I too have been through the fire and completely changed by it. Three of my five children and my husband all died of cancer after multiple bouts with it. We have a genetic mutation that predisposed my children and husband to multiple cancers. N. was diagnosed at 22 months and died at age 7. A. and D. were both diagnosed at age 15. A. died at age 28 and D. at age 19. My husband died 3 weeks after D. It was his greatest wish to live long enough to comfort me through my grief at D.’s death. My youngest also inherited the mutation but has not yet had cancer, and he’s in his early 20’s! I thank God every day for him!. My oldest is the only one who does not have the mutation. He’s a huge blessing! Each child had a 50/50 chance of inheriting it. We didn’t know about the mutation and its true nature until we had all our children. …I can’t wait to hear the rest of your story—struggles and victories alike.

    1. Kim, I am so sorry about your struggles with this decease. I cant imagine how hard it must of been for you and your family. It has taken me almost three years to recover and heal some of the wounds i was left with from that battle but with the grace of God I am geeing there. You are so right it is so important to tell our story and I want to talk about mine in hopes to help other get past the pain and let them know that it doesn’t matter how rough the storm might get God is with us in the storm. Have a bless day and keep living your life the best that you can,

  10. Wow thank you for sharing. This is my first blog ever purposely entering by invitation. Since Covid I’ve been working from home; however four hours a week I have to go into the office. Long story short, God put a lady in my path today that shared with me she has cancer and she was ready to go whenever & has refused any kind of treatment. I listened to her story and know in my heart that some things you don’t have to accept. After our conversation I asked her if I could pray for her and she gladly accepted. After I prayed & shared Gods amazing love with her. Her face changed and she graciously thanked me. I was able to see hope on her face and lit up with pure joy and it was not because of me it was because of God’s Love for us all. Blessings brother & thank you for listening for HIS strong voice inside us.

  11. My Dear Ramon. So sorry to hear about your Aunt. Several years back, I lost a sister to this disease. She initially had breast cancer. She was in remission for several years, but unfortunately lost the battle. I say lost the battle , because she fought like the trooper she was. She was a loving, funny, life of the party kind of woman. Just a couple years before passing, she gave her life to Christ. I say this to say, that sometimes God will allow this to happen, because His purpose is not to cause us pain; but so that He can glorify Himself through us. Had my sister not gone thru this, she wouldn’t of met God. God in his infinite mercy has healed many. But we must believe His word, and trust that ultimately He’s in control. This pandemic has brought many issues to the surface, and one of those is believing there is a God. He’s the creator and designer of all. Even when we may think it impossible, He’s the way maker. You must believe and faithfully, and wholeheartedly pray for your Aunt. Only He knows the outcome. But He’s still a God of miracles! I pray He gives you comfort and the peace that surpasses all understanding. God bless you.

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